Music - 可以不愛了

可以不愛了- 梁文音

詞、曲:戴佩妮

讓窗戶通通都打開 讓陽光通通照進來
讓風放肆的吹散我身上的塵埃
把你的過去變腐壞 把你的溺愛藏起來
把你的所有都搬到我房間以外

現在是三點鐘 你應該還沒醒呢
這有點刺眼的光線 會不會打擾你呢
夢不會實現了 我應該要醒了
我不該只懂得配合 你習慣短暫的溫熱

我努力要自己避開 和你曾走過的地帶
但是又和不捨拉扯 處在我快樂的界外
我何嘗不是一個人 來決定愛的延長賽
奈何總是勉強對自己 有一個善良的交代
我努力要自己躲開 你給我的傷心地帶
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到現在還是一個人 吞噬著自己的能耐
到最後我可以不愛了 你卻說捨不得

離開你欲走還留的眼睛 我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲開你轉身以後的消息 這一次我可以

我努力要自己避開 和你曾走過的地帶
但是又和不捨拉扯 處在我快樂的界外
我努力要自己躲開 你給我的傷心地帶
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到現在還是一個人 吞噬著自己的能耐
到最後我可以不愛了 你卻說捨不得

你可以不愛了 別說捨不得

I Went Party Again!!!

Laze ard at home these few days... Nuaing at home lah... And seize the opportunity to watch Perfect Cut... I bought the DVDs for quite sometimes liao but din really got the time to watch lah... Hehe... Anyway, I went party again last nite... =) Went Zouk! Mambo nite, and ladies got free entry... Haha...

Actually it's the 2nd time I went Zouk... I really felt lousy when I went there the 1st time... It really sux big time lor!!! The entry fee was ex with 2 glasses of standard drinks... And the music (trance music) really cannot make it lor... Harlow, though i'm a bad dancer, I 更加 dunno how to dance with trance music lor... Thought of changing the location but Mr Ee said he got another group of frenz there and he'll be killed if he changed the location... So we kinda reluctant to go there... Hehe...

Luckily last nite party is more fun... At least there's more drinks and the music are way off better... =) But hor, (I think) I stupidly paid 18bucks for a jug of green tea lor... Kaoz!!! It's damn ex lor... With 18bucks, I think I can buy ard 2 cartons of green tea from the supermart liao lor... By the way, the green tea is the mixer for our bottle of chivas... =) No no no, we dun go there to drink sth without alcohol lor... Wahahaha... It was more fun initially when Quek and I teamed up to coax others to drink lah... But we, ourselves oso did drink alot lor... Think in the end, Mr Huan and Mr Ee are almost gone liao lor... Hahaha... Mr Huan sneaked away halfway lor... He very kns lor, organise the party, then he himself ran away first... Kaoz!!! And this morning, he msg us to tell us he had a great time yesterday and hope to party again soon... Wah liew!! Think he's really very lonely and boring lor... Tsk tsk tsk... Hahaha...

Kinda upset to hear some not-so-good news abt him... Can I juz get myself drunk and delete away whatever I heard?!

Zodiac Forecast for this Moo Moo Year

Dear Internet,

I would like to know my fortune for this Moo Moo Year... (After surfing and exploring thru, here's the result...)

Zodiac Forecast for People Born in the Year of Rooster

Overall Forecast
You will have good wealth luck this year. There are a lot of lucky star this year but there is also unlucky star. Be prudent and don’t be too aggressive. Perform your best and your superior will notice. Those in business can expect results and push forward for expansion. Students can excel in their academic study. Good year to invest in property.

Career
Good progress in your career and work luck with increase in reputation and status. Smooth business deal and good business relationship. There are chances of promotion and overseas assignments.

Relationship
No major breakthrough in relationship this year. Be more truthful and affectionate to your companion. Married couples should go for a re‐charge vacation.

Wealth
Wealth luck is good this year. You will receive gain from your investment. However, you must control your spending also. You can consider investing in property. Be wary against petty people that might be jealous of your good luck this year.

Health
Health is normal this year but have to take note of home safety. Don’t climb high. Don’t speed or drink excessive alcohol. Take adequate rest and exercise.

Whether accurate anot, still too early to say... Gotta wait and see... =) And no excessive alcohol for me woh... So dun date me out for parties tat often hor... Haha... =D

Happy Moo Year!!

Happy Moo Year to all!!! =)

恭喜發財, 新年快樂!!

要幸福, 要甜蜜, 要快樂哦!!

Chinese New Year Long Break

All bcoz of the CNY long break next week, the whole of ad admin and copy admin dept worked like cows this week lor... We were really really REALLY damn busy due to the early closure... And as a matter of fact, my mood swing started again rite at the beginning of this week... Was kinda 情绪不稳定 on Mon and Tues... Haha...

And finally, after enduring for hundreds of hours, we fought our last battle yesterday!!! Yeah!!! Everyone started to set out-of-office message at 6pm sharp... Everyone started to avoid answering the phone calls or reading the emails... Everyone packed up and ready to run... Everyone, except Quek and me... We continued to work till 8plus... Haiz... Bo bian leh... Top 2 agencies mah... Hehe... Anyway, we received a msg later on from Ms Wu... She was asked to convey a msg: Mr Huan wanna go for a drink... Interested?! Haha... Was feeling kinda strange lor: why is she the one to sms us?! In the end, I helped to forward the msg ard... The response wasnt very good lah... Think coz everyone wanna do some last min shopping or do some spring cleaning lah... Nobody really keen lah, except for Mr Chan who sms back saying: Anything, what time?!

Finally, we decided to go chill out at Holland Village, Tango's... No partying lah... Coz Quek and I are dead beat lor... I kinda enjoy the chill out session... Plenty of thingy to talk abt... Mr Huan was a very entertaining person lor... He can talk abt everything under the sun... Haha... Mr Chan did join us after 12mn... Quek and Ms Wu ordered Asahi beer while I ordered a bottle of red wine... Haha... I really not trying to act classy or wat, but I really dun drink beers lor... And pls, I din finish up the whole bottle of wine... Mr Huan and Mr Chan oso drank the wine... Hehe... We juz kip chit-chatting till 2plus until the server repeatedly told us tat they are closing soon... Haha... But it really was kinda enjoyable... =)

I woke up 5mins before 9am today... Dammit! Dun ask me why I woke up tat early when I slept at ard 3.45am last nite... I oso dun have an answer lor... Was kinda half dead actually... Haha... Met Quek at Lot 1 to do some last minute shopping... I bought another pairs of shoes today... Hehe... Yes, I simply adore shoes! Headed to IMM later on... Think I'm kinda nuts coz I bought 2 perfumes today... And both perfumes are more than 50ml lor... Haha... But I really like Vera Wang Princess perfume lah... And believe me, if I had saw the perfume earlier on, I wouldnt buy the other one lor...

Might be doing some last minute shopping again tmr... Hehe... I havent bought my bag yet... I want a bag coz the current one tat I'm carrying is kinda torn liao lor... Might head to Causeway Pt tmr to look look see see... Hehe...

No official plans for next week yet... Who cares lah?! I can juz rot at home... I wont mind... Hehe...

The Thoughts Is Back

The thoughts is back... The scary thoughts is back... Yes Chia, it's exactly the same thoughts that you'd all this while... Haiz~~~

Can someone pls remind me, tell me, inform me of the plus points of my job?! I'm falling to the other side... Again... Falling to the negative side again... At times, I really cant help but wondered lor - am I really cut for this job?! I really think otherwise...

I know tat now is not the perfect or excellent time to leave lah... I oso hope tat this thoughts would juz perish soon... But... For now, it still lingers around lor... And no, thinking or reminding me of him izzit going to help... Not this time round, not at this moment...

Depressed... Yes, I am depressed... I need some encouragement pls... I need some consolation pls... No cold waters at this moment pls...

Where's The Good Thingy Abt 2009?!

2009 doesnt sound so fantastic to begin with leh...

Firstly, the news of 'off days' (otherwise known as paycut lah) were announced on 9th January... Kaoz! YES! Everyone, from the top management to the cleaning auntie (I think so lah) are affected... But the off days are supposed to commence from April onwards lah... So still not tat affected yet lah... Think they want us to be mentally (and monetary) prepared first...

Next, the demise of my cousin... Unexpectedly... Till now, still find it hard to accept... Haiz~~~

And today, sth happened again... Shucks! Did sth wrong lah... And need to raise a debit-credit note... Angry!! Argh!!! Was kinda pissed lor... And to put thingy worse off, having early closure for the rest of this week... Kaoz! Sure got very last min thingy lor...

Think the sms is some kind of curse leh... Simi Super Good 2009?! I think otherwise leh... At least nothing memorable had happened in 2009 yet... Think I shld juz delete away tat sms... (Yes, I cant bear to delete yet lah... Gimme more time... And I mean alot more...) Maybe it's still some kinda early to say tat but all the not-so-good thingy happened liao leh... So what on earth are the good thingy then?! Why are they hiding away from me?! Argh!!!

Cherish Your Loved Ones...

A bad news greeted me today when I woke up - one of my cousins had passed away... =( Mom broke the news to me when I was walking towards the bathroom... Sighz...

My cousin, Alvina... She was remembered as a sweet pleasant gal... Soft spoken... She was born with a hole in her heart... Went for op before and pulled thru every ops... Think many of us had the same thinking - she would definitely pulled thru this time round as well... But we are so wrong... She din win the last battle... She was only 17... There's still so much thingy that she can do, yet she had left... There's actually still a long journey for her to travel yet she juz left all of a sudden...

Honestly, I'm not really tat close with her... But I'm still very disturbed over this... I actually went to surf her friendster page juz now... And my tears started to well up... Saw her blog, saw her fotos... And it further saddens me... =(

Alvina, you were be remembered by all of us... Hope tat you would be happier in another world... We would miz you deeply...

Pls cherish your loved ones...

Random

Everything was peace and quiet... No stir-ups... Nothing... My agencies are damn quiet as well... Kaoz!!! Cant they juz sent some bookings in?! Okie, some of them did lah... But pls lah, those simple packages cant last me for an hour mah... Haiz~~~ Can they juz dump some bookings in my email?! Let me feel tat I'm paid for wat I'm doing mah... Haha... And yes, i'm a hard-to-please person... Hehe...

Quek is on leave for tomorrow and Monday... Her b-day is on this coming Sun... Quek, seriously, I dunno wat to get you for your b-day lor... Not only you lah, I dunno wat to get for the rest of them as well... Haiz~~~ Anyway, enjoy ur leave, ur chalet and ur b-day... And rem to lim until toh hor... Haha... =p

And once again, I dozed off while scrubbing my pet in Pet Society yesterday... Hahaha... This is the n times liao lor... =p Think history will repeat itself again today... I'm juz so tired leh... And ya, I dun sleep at 10pm anymore... Haha... I sleep at ard 11 liao... Still considered early for some of you out there but considered late for me liao lor... Hehe...

Where?!

Where No. 1?!
Where's all my bookings gone to?! I'm damn not busy yesterday and today lor... Dammit! And time is so hard to pass when you are damn free lor... Kaoz! At least dropped me some packages to do lah... If not some of them did call, I would definitely think tat they are still out of office lor... Haiz~~~ I've even done all my filings liao lor... And have even helped to file all those pre-emption forms, program changes forms and insertion & cancellation forms lor... Dropped me somethingy to do leh... =(

Where No. 2?!
Havent seen him in 2009 yet lor... Haiz~~~ Was saying previously tat I managed to see him a few times in a week... But this kinda 'luck' seems to run out liao leh... =( Nowhere in sight at all... Sad... I WANT HIM!!! I WANT TO SEE HIM!!! I WANT HIM AROUND!!! HE'S MINE!!!

Countdown

Like wat I mentioned previously, went for countdown celebration... Ermz, not as fun as I tot lah...

We headed to Dbl O, our fave hangout... Actually we go there bcoz the drinks are cheap lor... Okie lah, the music are oso not bad lah... I've got some of the mp3 in my ipod lah... Haha... Cover charge was damn expensive lor - Ladies $30 and guys $40... Kaoz!! A good time to chop us suckers lor!! No price hike on the drinks lah... Heng ah! Or else everyone will be bleeding liao... Haha...

The place was packed and squeezed with ppl lor... Kaoz!! Was wondering is the air-con spolit or wat... Everyone was prespiring like mad lor... The whole of my back was drenched with my sweat lor... And my make-up was fading off with my constant wiping of my sweat... Really felt like I'm spending money partying in an oven... Kaoz!!!

Let me see, 8 of us went... (Our dear Mr Huan went to Marina Bay lor - fly kite... His dad's car broke down and he gotta celebrated countdown at the expressway... Haha...) Think ard 3 - 5 of us were pretty high lor.. Haha... The one who reached the 'highest' state is (drum rolled)... dear Mr Ee... Muahaha... Think he aint in a good mood anyway... So abit 借酒消愁的感觉... Most of the time his eyes wont opened lor... Haha... And the best part is he will throw whatever that's in his hand lor... We will given a small goody bag with those props for the countdown... He took out whatever is inside and juz threw the paperbags behind him... LOL!!! Then he started to play the popper even before midnight strikes! Haha...

We stayed there till 3plus... Think they did extend their opening hrs but who can tahan to stay in the oven any longer?! In the end, we decided to go somewhere else for 2nd round... But dammit, no cabs available!! Kaoz kaoz kaoz!!! So we walked there lor... And wrong pairs of shoes I'm wearing again... In the end, I decided to barefoot to our destination... Haha... But thanks to Quek, halfway to the destination, she offered to exchange shoes with me... Thanks a lot Quek! =) Anyway, when we reached She Bangs, it was packed with party-goers as well lah... And actually the whole stretch of Boat Quay was packed with party-goers at 4am lor... Sat at She Bangs for like 15mins before we decided to leave for supper or do you called tat breakfast liao?! Haha...

Breakfast was not worth mentioning lah... Think everyone was tired and hungry liao... Haha... After breakfast, we decided to head home! Damn bloody hell tat's the most difficult part lor... Wanted to call cabs, no cabs available... Dammit! In the end, we sat at 1 George St and ard 5.15am, we decided to take MRT instead... Haiz!! So we strolled to the MRT station... How the hell are we supposed to know tat Raffles Place MRT station opened only at 6am?! How the hell are we supposed to know that the 1st NS train is at 6.30am?! Anyway, we aint the only silly bunch of peeps... The field outside Raffles Place MRT station was oso packed with people lor... Haiz~~~ Think the whole lots of ppl are having the same thinkings as us: Not going to town for countdown next year... Haha... But by the time for countdown again, everyone would juz forget abt this whole thingy and started heading to town for countdown again... Muahaha...

And yes peeps, I reached home at ard 7.40am... Finally... Dead tired by then...