My Plans...

Life is all about planning...

My plans for 1st half of 2012 (as of now):
Jan: Jam Hsiao Concert, Zoo Trip - Done!
Feb: Chalet, Mayday Concert
Mar: Taiwan Trip
Apr: -
May: Thailand Trip
Jun: -

Plans are subjected to changes. But those listed above are confirmed confirmed le... =)
Some plans are still in progress...

So what's your plan? ^^

A Change

Hope you like the new changes to my blog... =)

I will try to update this space more often and less update on twitter lah..
Hehe~~ Kinda hard but i will try..

If not, you can follow me on twitter or weibo mah.. =)

Hi~~ * Wave Hand*

It's been such a long long long time since i last updated this space...

Anyone miz me here? Doubt so lah... =p

2nd Half of 2011

Before the end of 1st half of 2011, I've planned (and confirmed some) for the 2nd half of 2011. =)

Am starting off with a musical play in July - The Music of Andrew Lloyd Webber. Woohoo~~ Happened to know abt this play by chance. Hurhur~~ Was watching the news (I forgot on which channel) and was so eggcited abt this. Hv asked Ms Chan whether will she be keen to watch, and she gladly replied a yes... Yipee~~ The tix are not cheap I muz say, but it's kinda once in a lifetime kinda deal. So ya, what the hell? LOL~~

Am returning to the zoo on 24Jul. =) My mom haven been to the zoo for at least a decade. I balloted for the company zoo entry pass and viola! I'm the lucky one! LOL~~

Then it will be away to the Land of Smiles (and Elephants?) in end July. Will be back in early August. Ya, nothing planned for August... Yet... Sighz... There were initial plans to travel BUT someone's someone said here dangerous, there dangerous. So in the end, the plan was abandoned. ='( And, as far as I know, that might be the only time that I will ask this someone again.

September! Oh, not much plan in September yet. I mean out of the 30days, i only got 1 day plan. Hahahahha~~

Am going to Hkg in Oct, during Dad's birthday. =) We are gonna celebrate Dad's birthday in Hkg!! He sounded happy... At the moment lah... Hurhur~~

No plans in Nov but I got countdown plans!! Hurhur~~ Waiting for Ms WWW to confirm only leh... I think she will take a long time.

Oh, in the midst of these plans, I'm really considering, thinking hard whether to *throw the letter* anot. It's been 4yrs liao... I think i hv tahan long enuff lor... Sighz... I aint the kind who will be able to tahan for a decade lah. So 4yrs shld be enuff. And this job is really getting on my nerves every now and then.

Demise of my ah-mah

It came as a sudden, as a surprise. An unwelcome surprise. I received the news on 16 May, at ard 8.35am... I was already in my office, tucking in my breakfast when my dad (who happened to be off that day) rang me up and informed this news: 'Ah mah left already. Mum is crying very bitterly.' After I end the call, i immediately ran over to my boss' cubicle and told her that my ah
mah is gone and i need to go home immediately.

I was so bitterly upset that i arrived home later than everyone else. Coz by the time when we reached ah mah's hse, they already sent ah mah for injections to preserve the body for 7days. Mum din see ah mah there and almost burst out crying... I feel guilty, real guilty.

We get changed and prepared for the funeral, prepared for the return of ah mah and her casket. There's a kinda ceremony for this and we, the children, the grandchildren and the great grandchildren of ah mah all kneel down to 'welcome' her back. During the ceremony, I heard a woman crying, loud and bitter. I tot it's my second aunt but little did i know that it's actually my
Mum. Mum was kneeling down at least 3 rows ahead of me and I only came to realise after the ceremony. My tears started to flow down after i saw my mum wept until like that. My heart breaks. I felt terrible. I felt guilty. I felt useless – coz i can only tell my mum dun be so upset yet i cant do anything to ease her pain.

The wake lasted till 22 May. It's one of my ah mah's wish to hold the wake for 7days. Lotsa frenz, relatives and colleagues came down to pay the last respects for ah mah. Very crowded, very 热闹. Ah mah likes 热闹. Gone thru almost all the rituals. Was worried that my mum might
collapse so I wld try to stay and stick ard with her. I have to take care of her coz she's my mum! Dad warned me that mum still hv a stage to go thru which she will totally breakdown – the crementation session. I agreed, so i prepared lotsa tissue papers (juz in case). The bidding farewell ceremony is another heartbreaker. All of ah mah's children, including my mum, was crying uncontrollably. In fact, most of us started to cry as well... 我们很舍不得阿嬷. 所有的坚强都在这时刻瓦解了... 泪如断了线的珍珠般不停的滴落...

Tears flowed down yet uncontrollably again when we reached Mandai. My mum was shouting, screaming, crying loudly when the casket was slowly moving towards the 'fire'. We were told to come back the following day to collect the ashes.

My eldest uncle was the first one to place one of ah mah's bones/ashes to the urn. Unknowingly, he juz dropped the bone. It was only later that the person told him to place it gently. Feeling very guilty, he started to cry all over again. All of us accompanied ah-mah to her new home in Bedok. Everyone told turns to say a word or two with ah mah. When it was ah-gong's turn, 他双手合十想向阿嬷道别时却被阻止了... 我看到阿公终于忍不住很难过的落泪了, 我的眼泪又很不争气的落下了...

回到家里, 我终于忍不住嚎啕大哭了... 一直劝妈妈不要哭, 一直在陪哭... 这次却是真真实实的哭了... 好难过, 好难过, 好像憋了好久, 好像好久没哭似的, 泪水一直不断往下滑... 妈妈最后发现了, 而这次换成是她来安慰我...

阿嬷啊, 大家都好想念你啊!! 希望你在天堂会因为无病无痛而比较快乐啊!! 你永远会活在我们的心中的!

一路好走

Received news that an ex-schoolmate passed away yest. In one side of the story, i heard that she suffered a stroke, the other side of the story is that she got blood clots in her brain. Anyway, she collapsed while working on last Thu (24Jan), and went unconcious ever since. Her family members (after much consideration, I believe so) decided to remove the life support. So she left the earth and headed to the heaven last nite.

Wasnt really that close to her. Wasnt really very 熟 with her. Know her by name. Know that she's from which class. Know that she's the same batch as me. Know that she's of the same age as me. Felt real sad especially when she's of the same age as me and is someone that I know... =( It really made me wonder: my turn will be here soon? Can I hv some warnings/ signals first pls? Hv yet to learn the importances of alot of thingy yet... I hope I'm still able to catch up....

Rest in peace gal... 一路好走...

Recap of 2010-03

家家有本難唸的經

As I previously mentioned, my sis-in-law was intro to the family in May. A time when they already planned to live and stay together, a time when they already planned to ROM. And they did so in Sept. Everyone of us is happy, really happy. But alas, how long can the happiness last?

Hmm… I dunno what to say lah… Maybe they din really know each other that well? Maybe she havent adapt to our family yet? Maybe she havent blend in to our family yet? Quarrels, arguments, crazy acts (which I dun want to elaborate) of various topics, various subjects filled up Year 2010. Argued abt anything under the sun. I often tot abt this: When there’s no mutual trust and understanding, why get married? Isn’t mutual trust and mutual understanding a fundamental part of marriage? Venting angers on each other or others are plain silly lor.

We did welcome her with open arms when she joined our family back then. But it’s only less than a yr that this relationship turned sour. An incident occurred which I was forced to take a day leave to take care of. An incident that left a thorn in everybody’s heart. Till today, that incident remains. Mystery unsolved. It’s kinda become a forbidden topic in our hse.

I truly wish to restore the harmony in our hse. I truly want back our peace and happiness in our hse. I know the art of getting along with each other is not easy to master. Everyone is learning, learning hard. But I hope we can work this out together.

Year 2011 is still a year of hope, rite? Anything can happen. And I really mean anything!

Let’s stay hopeful! =)

Recap of 2010-02

享受人生

Quitted partying for no apparent reasons. Juz plain tired, I guess. I figured out that the cover charges, the drinks, the suppers and the cabfare home really cost me quite a fortunate. So I need to seek some sort of alternatives. =)

2010 was the year when my sis-in-law was officially intro to our hse. To keep her company, my bro would suggest going for movies, kite-flying, ktv, bowling, dinner, etc… Kinda sad to say but yes, I’m juz a 陪襯品 lor… But still did enjoy these activities lah. I like bowling sessions best, though I keep heading for the long-gao instead. LOL~~~

I catch quite a fair bit of movies last year as well… 3D or otherwise. Some are really very Wow-ing (like Inception =) ). Some are really entertaining. Some left me do some thinkings. Some are juz plain boring. Any movies to recommend this year? =)

Concerts and plays filled up some slots in my schedule on the later half of 2010 as well. Plays, ranging from my very first one – 雨季 to the last one – Cinderellah, love them muchie. Oh, 雨季 is really really nice to watch lah… So enjoy Kit Chan’s 演出… I finally managed to watch her on stage after like dunno how many years lah… Hv been trying to catch her performance since her first (to me, it’s the first lah) debut in Snow Wolf Lake. Heard that she really threw in a great performance back there but haiz, back then I got no monies to watch… =( When I finally started wkin, started to earn some money, 她就不演了… Sob sob... That time I was so very the upset lor…

Concerts! 2010 was pretty quiet (like every year) lah… I only catch 2 concerts last year – Jam Hsiao and Mayday. I think I catch these 2 only lah… or still got someone else? Hmm… Jam Hsiao is officially added to my must-watch concert list after his performance here… He’s got really strong vocals. Did enjoy the concert a lot, though not much of his songs I know (at that time). But he’s really damn skinny lor… Tsk tsk tsk~~

Mayday is back again in 2010. But this time round, they are not in indoor stadium anymore. They are holding it in the Stadium instead. But I muz say the preparation jobs from the concert organisers aint done properly lor… The god of rain paid a 2hr or so visit before the concert began. At 5sth, we are praying real hard that the rain would stop soon and luckily the rain did stop lah. But then, the grass turned into muddy patches and the chairs are smeared with raindrops. By the time we reached our seats, our shoes and pants and legs are completely covered with muds lor… And the worse thingy is: we went to the wrong seats and cleaned up other people’s seats instead! Aaahhhhhh!!!! Sound so silly, rite? There’s 2 – 6 BIG fans at the event and none of the fans were on lor! We, inclusive of Mayday themselves, were sweating (and swearing) non-stop lor… Tsk tsk tsk~~ Bad bad bad!! And due to the rain, the transformer that they brought in turned faulty and became handicapped!!! OMG!!! Haiz~~~ I hope the next time they came, pls stay put at indoor lah. 掀開屋頂是很好啦, but 太熱了啦!!!

Upcoming plans for this year! Confirmed watching Rock 30 Concert in January liao! Hehehe~~~ Then in February, will be watching a I-considered-as-mini-concert of Kit Chan… That’s not all! Am planning to watch JJ Lin’s and Jody Chiang’s concerts in March and Tanya Chua’s concert in April! Wheeet!! But it’s planning only lah.. Havent confirmed yet de…

Life’s great, at least for now…

Recap of 2010-01

The very article that I intended to post previously. The very article that was deleted when I tried to change the font colors.

2010 was considered quite a great year for me.
To avoid a super long article, I would try to break into several entries instead. =)

休息是為了走更長遠的路
I went for 3 trips this year! Hurhur~~ Penang with Ms Lie in April, and Taiwan with my folks in June/ July and Taiwan (again) with Ms Puck, Ms Hui and Ms Chia in December! Happy, really happy! Who dun love to travel around? Hurhur~~

I can never forget abt this Penang trip lor! We went unprepared with sunblock and everything. And so by the end of Day 1 (only), both of us are tanned! It’s only the first day lor! Tsk tsk tsk!! Really tanned lor, like the piece of meat on the barbeque pit with the charcoal burning below! The beach is so lovely. I would love to go back there! But I would arm myself with lotsa sunblock and whitening lotion the next time I go there!

The Taiwan trip in June/ July is also a brand new experience! Not my first time to Taiwan but I’m still find it equally thrilling. My previous Taiwan trips revolve around Taipei only. So when my folk decided to pick a trip to travel round Taiwan, I welcome the idea with open arms! Besides Taipei, 高雄, 台東, 台中, 花蓮 are some of the county (am I rite to say county) that we visited as well. Hmm… 1,000 plus of fotos taken. Cant rem the exact quantity but every foto tells a story. =)

The Taiwan trip in December was planned in August, I think. We are planning for a countdown trip! Yet another brand new experience for me. =) My first ever overseas countdown trip! Hurhur~~ Our initial plan was to travel within Taipei only. However, after much discussion and agreement, we decided to travel out of Taipei as well… It’s a wise move I shld say. We went to 十分 to 放天燈, went to 清境 to 放煙火… Witness the first rays of sun rose up. Witness the last ray of sun went down. Was freezing cold in清境 (ard 3 to 5 degrees only) but the hosts at the minsu was really friendly and nice. The beautiful husky - 嘟比 - was well-liked by all guests as well… Would revisit there again if I went to Taiwan again… Hurhur~~

No official plans for 2011 yet but I do hope that it would be a even better year! =)

So Drama...

As if my life wasnt 精彩 enuff, my family had to spice them up... Urgent leave taken juz to settle this dramatic conflicts.

A misunderstanding (maybe not a misunderstanding) triggers everything...

Had my fair share of tears over the weekend and yest. Maybe haven reached 一公升眼泪, but still 流了不少 lor...

Thinking that 一走了之 is the best solution? Pls think again... 一走了之 is not going to settle any problems. Instead the problem(s) will snowball into (a) even bigger problem(s)...

I think Mom watched too much dramas liao woh... She tot that I wld be able to call the airport to stop someone from boarding the plane. Hurhur~~

Told Mom that it wld be the first and jolly well be the last time this kinda drama be shown up in our family. I do like to watch dramas... But I dun wish to star in this kinda dramas... I wld prefer a easier role or at least a more happier role... PLS~~~

生命

是否感受過心情一瞬間從天堂跌如谷底?

是否感受過生死於瞬間?

是否感受過徹底失望?

是否感受過徬徨無助?

當這群人正努力掙扎的試圖活著, 那群人卻藐視生命...

生命能如此精彩, 也是如此脆弱...

眼淚, 還是不由自主地落下...

I Feel So Love~~

I feel so love when:

- mum cooks my fave dish;

- mum said she will be knitting a shawl for me;

- colleagues-cum-frenz think of me and buy me a drink when they went out for lunch;

- frenz rem my birthday and celebrate together with me or simply greet me Happy Birthday;

- frenz surprise me with little gifts;

- a long-time-no-see fren send me a Hello sms;

- frenz console me when I'm feeling down/ upset;

- someone is there to share my joy

- I can juz be who I am... =)



I can sense that love is in the air~~

Sweet December is coming, can you feel it?! =)

PS: Let me think of more feel love scenerios and update again..

I'm Back!!

It sounds like I've been gone for a lllllllooooooonnnnnnngggggg time... But hey, aku MIA for only ard 2 mths lah... And I din really MIA lah.. I did update my tweets regularly mah...

Hmm... The busiest work period (Oct) hv passed by. Totally buried myself with work... There's a few weekends which I did think of coming back to clear my works.. But then, LAZINESS conquered all!! Muahahhahaha~~ Yup, it's remained as a thought. I nv did come back on those weekends.

Family gatherings, friends outings, laptop maintenance occupied most of my weekends. And in fact, am getting more and more lazy to wake up on weekdays to work lor... Hurhur~~ But no choice lah, for the sake of vitamin M, i still struggled on...

Another mth or so before 2010 ends... Christmas is coming... ^^ I've juz listed out my christmas list last week... Hv started buying some of the christmas gifts liao, though still got a lot more to buy... Omit some names, add in some names.. The no. of gifts still remain the same leh.. Hmm...

And very soon, Boxing Day will be here! Aint excited abt Boxing Day itself lah.. What I'm excited abt is my yr end trip... My first overseas countdown! Wheet!! =D

Sometimes I Dun Understand...

Sometimes I dun understand: is it really so difficult to admit ur own mistakes?
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Sometimes I dun understand: is it really so difficult to admit that you are forgetful?
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Sometimes I dun understand: do you really stand in other people's point of view before you voice your opinions?
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Sometimes I dun understand: do you really think you can read people's mind?
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Sometimes I dun understand: do you know that the world doesnt only revolve around you?
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Sometimes I dun understand....

Do You Regret Choosing This Job?

I remember I read somewhere before. Some articles abt work. Something like dun complain abt your work. Coz it's YOU who choose this job! Kinda silly to complain abt something you choose, not to mention carefully. Hurhur~~~

Well, i kinda agree with that article initially. Yes, I choose this job. So i shld be happy/ glad/ contented that i got this job rite? So i shldnt make any negative remarks abt this job rite? It's my choice after all. Nobody force me to take this job. Nobody said I must take this job. That's really how i feel aft i read that article. But then, I'm having second tots abt it liao.

Yes, nobody force me to take this job. I choose it myself. I admit i pick the wrong one. Well, everyone got bad taste at times mah. Hurhur~~ So this is where my bad taste/ choice lies... LOL~~~ We tried to learn from mistakes but then again, sometimes the lesson learn is not engraved in our minds. Maybe not deep enuff, that's why we make the same mistakes over again.

一个人久了

Hmm... Partially true?!

一个人久了 会懒得恋爱
一个人久了 朋友会越重要
一个人久了 会越来越喜欢听歌
一个人久了 会养成一个怪癖
一个人久了 对爱情会越来越挑剔
一个人久了 会慢慢变成成熟起来
一个人久了 会比以前更重视更爱父母，更重视亲情
一个人久了 对所有的节日大多没什么期待
一个人久了 会带自己去很远的地方
一个人久了 会觉得无拘无束自由自在天宽地广
一个人久了 会越来越理性，越来越现实
一个人久了 会懂得处理钱财
一个人久了 都不喜欢一个人去戏院看戏
一个人久了 做事只需跟自己交待
一个人久了 计划未来的东西都只是一个人
一个人久了 开始会自言自语了
一个人久了 是很幸福的时光
一个人久了 会喜欢上一个人的生活

一个人久了

I Dun Get It!

Few mths ago, Mr A's pc went haywire! Breakdown and cannot be use! He wanted to buy a new pc/ laptop. Mr B disagreed and barked at Mr A for wasting money like water. I was even dragged into the boiling water when I tried to defend Mr A. I still rem this is what Mr B said lor:

- 电脑坏就要买新的? 你用电脑又不是来做工, 是来聊天和打games 的咯!
- 电脑坏就要买新的? 如果妈妈的洗衣即机坏了, 是不是要买新的?
- 电脑坏就要买新的? 如果我的车坏了, 是不是要买新的?

I find it amusing, in fact kinda ridiculous lor... Thingy spolit and when u cant repair, of coz u will buy new one lor... And moreover, everybody used pc/laptops/notebooks not only to work mah, for entertainment as well de lor... And he sure know how to 牵拖 alot of thingy lor... And most importantly, Mr A is not using Mr B's money to buy the new gadget mah, so why Mr B is so worked up leh?

Few mths later (which is early this mth), I saw an unfamiliar notebook Mr B is holding. So I asked him: New gadget? He replied: Yes, a second-hand notebook that he bought for Ms C. Almost immediately behind his back, I started rolling my eyes.

Funny rite this person? He can buy a new gadget and other ppl cannot ah? What is he thinking when he barked at us? And what is he thinking when he bought this gadget ah? I dun get it lor!!

Colors

My life started as white - a pc of blank paper...

The upbringing, the knowledge & education received, the frenz, the loves received and rejected and many many more were/ are added (still adding) to this pc of paper. From white to baby colors to yellow to orange to red to purple to blue to grey to black and to whatever colors, every colors count, even the upset, the heartbroken, the sad...

Rem the first time we met?

Rem the kisses we had?

Rem the breakups experienced?

Every colors count, and what colors are you then?

Sssshhhhh

When your tots and feelings cant be jotted down in blog...

Keep mum... Silent... Not a word...

The Art of Consoling

Frankly speaking, I dunno how to console ppl lor...

Dun be sad...
Be strong...
Everything will be alrite...

I only know how to use the 3 sentences above when it comes to consoling ppl...
Fine, I'm dumb when it comes to consolation..
So, dun come to me if you need consolation...
Can still approach me if you need a listening ear lah...
But if you weeped/ sobbed/ shed a tear or whatsoever, the best I can do is offer my shoulder and pass you a tissue paper only lor...
Any solutions/ suggestions/ alternatives needed, very much depend on the situation liao...
Sounds almost like a bad idea to look for me if you're feeling down... Hurhur...

I'm only best at suan-ing and scolding ppl lor... Hurhur..