Sianz!

This month really damn 不顺 lor... Everything went wrong... Wat's wrong huh?

First is work problem lor... 接二连三的收到恶耗... 明明错不在于我, 却硬要我吃死猫... 真的是ABC XYZ... And to top things worse, 1 of the agencies is transfering some accounts to my M agency... Dammit! Then why M agency din transfer some accounts out? Really pek chek lor...

感情更不用说了... 还在原地踏步lor... I make no action at all... Excuse me, I busy with work like hell lor... Where got time for him?

And juz as July is about to end, my dear PC went haywire liao... F*** lah... 真的是嫌我的烦恼不够多lor... 要来雪上加霜!

July is really a bad bad month for me... 1 of my colleagues commented tat I smiled less often nowadays... I'm really stressed up lor! Nothing went smooth enuff to make me cheer up lor... Pls lor! With this kinda bad news kip pouring over you, how to maintain tat lovely, adorable smile? Fortunately, 1 more day before July is gone...

Self psycho in progress: Bear with it, Ms Tay... August onwards will be a better month for you liao... Everything will be as smoothly as it can be... :)

Updating...

Sighz... Wasn't supposed to be in Singapore for this week... Had wanna planned for a trip to Taiwan with Ms Quek & Ms Chia... But in the end, Ms Quek went to Taiwan with her cousin... :( Sad... And to make thingy worse, I gotta cover her for the whole of next week... 真的是狠狠地在我伤口上踩两脚啊!!!

TV Party at Dempsey Hill on Friday... 1 of the dunno pub/cafe/restaurant lah... My very first 'party' with these people... Haha... Ya, completely bypass my 1st D&D lor... Can still remember lor: people busy partying, busy drinking, eating, gambling horses, we were busy checking listings, booking in spots... Sighz... 只能说同人不同命啊! The food wasn't really tat impressive... Ms Wong was hoping for her bee hoon so much... Haha... Before eating any food, I sipped a few mouthful of wine liao... Think tat's where the problem lies... *Shake head* Ok lah... Quite enjoyable lah... And ya, I did like the place where I seated at... Muahaha...

I dun deny the fact tat I like him lor... Dun think it's any disgrace tat I like him lor, so why should I deny leh? Rite? Haha... Juz waiting for the rite/ripe time bah...

Sometimes

Sometimes I do think about him...

Sometimes I do wish to see him...

Sometimes I do wish to talk to him...

Sometimes I do dream about him...

Sometimes I do wonder what I like about him...

Sometimes I do doubt he knows my presence...

Sometimes I do have doubt in myself...

Sometimes I do doubt my ability...

Sometimes I do hope that someone will remind me that he and me are two different world people...

Sometimes I do like to forget about him...

Sometimes...

Music - Christina Aguilera: The Voice Within

Have been repeatedly hearing this song recently... Think quite encouraging lah, at least to me... :)

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong) You’ll break it
(hold on) You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
(No one can tell you what you can’t do)
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

Sighz... Why Am I The One?

Damn suay! Work problems arise again... Really super sianz lor... Not my fault but still my problem... Sighz... It's a very draggy long story:

M Agency sent in bookings thru our e-system... They wanted to select either a 1:50 spot or a 50:1 spot, with surcharge... Sent in bookings under a generic brand... After they had submitted the spots, we created a brand new brand for it... The person who did the booking agreed to change the brand... However, unknowingly to both, once the brand is changed, the spot position will be dropped off lor but the surcharge still hang down there lor! Shucks! Everybody realised this problem when the LF is changed and emails sent out to the person who did the booking... Wah kaoz! Ya, expectedly shifted all these faults to ad admin, e.g. me lor... Really wanna ABC XYZ lor... Wah liew! They din say they book in with specific positioning in the 1st place mah, how would I know?

That's the 1st part of the story... 1 of my fellow colleagues shifted their EBB/ SB... She tot tat these spots are shiftable... Wah liew! Happily shifted the spots but the one to die is me again lor... And the worst part is: it's the very same campaign lor... Sighz! Why like tat? Think she had learnt her lesson but I think the most innocent party is me lor... Agency think tat I make the mistake... Salesperson think tat I make the mistake... Ya ya, everybody thinks the problem lies in me lor when it's not even my fault to begin with...

I'm really sianz of this job leh... 功劳就没有啦，出事了，我们就是第一个死的... 不管错在不在于我们，我们都是首当其冲的lor... And I really hate those salespersons who shifted all the blame to us when any faults/ errors/ problems arise lor... 他们真的令人反感lor！见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话、颠倒是非的讨厌鬼！

火啊！

知足

人為什麼永遠都不會知足呢?

好不容易碰了個面,卻希望能打招呼...
好不容易打了個招呼,卻希望能說些話...
好不容易說了些話,卻希望話題能一直繼續下去...

一直希望能得到多一點點的什麼, 卻總是因為不知足而感到失望...

該學學如何知足了...

Tired.. Endless Bookings...

Recently, my mood aint too good... Ok, he plays a role in causing my mood swing, but juz a minor role... The main reason is WORK lor... Sighz...

Endless of work... Endless bookings... Finish this booking, 2 more flooded in... Havent even finish tat booking, another 2 more shot in... And the worst thingy is the more I work, the more stress tat I endure, the more mistakes I will make... Sighz... Juz trying to kip my fingers crossed, praying nothing terrible goes wrong... Think everybody have sensed tat something wrong with me lor... Aint the usual chitty-chatty person... Was kinda building up walls, creating fences around myself...

Mom commented tat I look tired... I told her tat I dun feel like working anymore... Think she's hoping tat I would find a job first before I left... Maybe wat I really need now is a break? I feel like I'm in a quicksand... The more I struggled, the deeper I fell into... And if I dun struggled, I would juz sink rite in liao...

I shld plan something tat I'll be looking forward to... Think tat might help me brighten up abit...

I'm simply drained out...

Music - 夢飛船: 不值得

除了想你 除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记 整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过 你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心 无力继续

这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而灰了心 放弃爱你

除了想你 除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记 打开心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过 你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心 无力继续

这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而灰了心

不为你而放弃爱情 不为你而灰了心
我决定不为你而灰了心 放弃爱你

Will I be singing out this song in the near future?

Updates On Work

Almost everything is still the same...

Busy as ever... Getting rather fed up with 1 particular advertiser lor... Kip changing and changing and changing... Send in an email to tell me to book packages... Then few days later, sent in yet another email to say the campaign postponed... Then few days later, sent yet another email to say change 1 of the packages to another package of different prices... Then following day, sent in 1 more email to say campaign to postpone yet again... Wah kaoz! They think I very free izzit? They think I only do their booking izzit? Make up ur mind lah! Tell me to book book book, then tell me to cancel... Angry!

Fastfood advertiser sent in bookings as well... Sighz... Mr H gave me the wrong info lor... Told me they would be buying packages... Kinda frustrated lor... Coz the airtime is rather tight lor... Have to do extra works lor... Ms Quek, thanks for your help... Think without your help, I would still be shifting and booking spots till 8pm lor... Hehe...

Sponsorships are in mess... Almost every recent booking is payment upfront... Sighz... Then inform the salespersons liao... Salespersons said dun nid to collect payment upfront... Wah liew! U think U finance ah? U said dun nid then dun nid ah? Gimme black and white notice with approval lah... If I followed wat you said, anything goes wrong, are you going to back me up? Or are you going to step me deeper in? Quote wat Mr T told me before: U think my first day here meh?

Almost everything is still the same... Almost... 只是感觉有点疲惫了...

What Does My Birthday Means?

Got this from Facebook...

You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability. This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever. Your Love, You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before seeing any progress in love.

How accurate you think it is? I dunno abt the rest but I think it totally describes my love line lor: You are quite unlucky in love... Wah liew! This sentence will be haunting me every now and then liao... Said I chicken out before seeing any progress, so shld I stand firm to this one now and wait till I see 'great improvements'? Hehe... Kinda hard leh... Well, rite now, it's still him lah, no doubt... Juz tat he dunno tat he's the one lor... Hehe... I'm still standing firmly at the moment, but dunno abt 以后 lah...