My Friday Nite

Stayed late for work again last nite... Haiz... I felt like a complete fool... Dammit! Dunno why but thingy juz chunked up on a Friday lor... Yes, everybody was busy miting up for dinners, shopping, gathering, etc.. left only the silly silly me, still buried in my works... Told myself: No more staying back on Fridays!! No more, I certainly hope so...

Chilled out session at Holland V Tango after tat... These ppl never learn to be on time lor... I felt like a complete fool again... 1 person chomping the seats for 7... Honestly, I was telling myself tat if I finished my glass of lychee martini and they still din turn up, I would juz pay for my drinks and my food aka my dinner and took a cab home liao... Mr Ee 'spolit' the whole plan... He came early as well... Haha... So it becomes 2 sillies chomping seats for 7... Seriously, I was thinking to myself: if there's any more chilled out session like this, I wont turn up tat early anymore!! Red wine as usual for me... The wine tat I ordered this time round is smoother... =) Think if I went there again, I would order this again... Haha...

And I'm really pissed at someone's inconsideration/ selfishness/ watever you called tat lah... Juz for him alone, the rest of us would have to slog and crack our brains to do all those changes... Dammit! I wish someone can juz tell him off... I seriously do!!

I'm kinda confused this week... Confused over some feelings... Think I had sorted it out... Hopefully so...

Last entry of this mth... Tomorrow is a brand new month liao... Hope thingy get better... Let's keep our fingers crossed!

No New Phone For Me... Yet...

I didnt manage to buy either a N85 or a c905 today... =(

I did go to Singtel today... Went to renew my other lines contracts... I did get new handsets but these new handsets aint for me... I did ask for the price of the C905 and N85... Over $400 after a hundred bucks rebate... Haiz... Still kinda expensive for me lor... Cant bear to spend $400plus on new phones... Not yet... Think I'll wait for few more mths... 2 mths maybe... The prices shld have dropped by then... In the meantime, I shld juz stick on to my current phone... Juz nid to kip my fingers crossed tat my phone dun die on me... Not now!! The Singtel guy is quite friendly... Cute guy... Good service attitude... Think he deserve a compliment... Hmm...

Ermz, another impt reason why I cant bear to spend $400plus on new phone is bcoz my new Juicy Couture bag is coming!!! Woohoo!! Thanks XH!! Cost ard $300plus lah tat bag... Hehe... I cant wait to see my new bag!! Hehe...

Emo Song

My mp3 player randomly shuffled to this song... The lyrics juz perfectly describe 我此刻的心情... =( Especially this part:

每個人都在說這種愛情沒有結果
我也知道你永遠都不能夠愛我
其實我只是希望你有時想一想我
你卻已經漸漸漸漸什麼都不再說

Awww... Heart-wrenching... =(

我睡不著的時候　會不會有人陪著我
我難過的時候　會不會有人安慰我
我想說話的時候　會不會有人瞭解我
我忘不了你的時候　你會不會來疼我

=( =( =( =( =(

Blog

Tot I shld blog this though I felt a little silly... LOL...

Was browsing thru one of my colleagues' blog last Wed... Random reading lah... Saw her latest posts where she uploaded lotsa Andy Lau's fotos... I actually wanna left a comment on tat entry lor but I juz couldnt find the comment column... Hahaha... I saw a tagboard column but cannot leave any comment... Wahahaha... I dunno wat's got into me but the next thingy tat I do is to sms her and told her abt my feels... I oso told her tat her blog frame is too small lor... Hehe... She replied and said she would get some experts' helps and told me dun go and view her blog for the time being till Sat... Seriously, I tot she's only kidding when she said she will revamp her blog... So when I went to read her blog again juz now, I was kinda surprised... She really revamped her blog... To me, the current template is much nicer lor... Nice one! =)

Haha... At least my comments/ advices are worth 2 pennies... Hehe..

My Mind In A Swirl

My mind is in a swirl... Many thoughts juz stayed put there and refused to go...

Was wkin late till ard 10pm last nite with Quek... Yes, everyone left the office liao, leaving only 2 dumbos (and I really mean DUMBOS lor) behind... And it's a friday nite somemore... Bookings, bookings, bookings... Ya, everything juz flooded in on a Friday... Bookings for TVM... Not enuff airtime, shifting the bonus spots ard, shift until fed-up lor...

I simply hate Mr Huan's wkin attitude... He's really testing my limits nowadays... He owed me the approval for 2 weeks, delayed the bookings and still got the cheek to say tat I'm petty when I'm mad at him... I'm petty rite?! Fine, petty lor... 女人都是小气的... He can jolly well forget abt me helping him out the next time lor... He doesnt appreciate anyway... So why shld I give a damn?! I think my job really sux lor... Hardly anyone appreciate when you did well... You helped them out, they will take you for granted... However, everyone will jump and scream at you once you did something wrong... And to top thingy worse, sometime the mistakes are not even make by you lor... Feel so 无辜 and 冤枉 lor... But will anyone cares?! I shld juz stick to my old unfriendly route and stop poking into other people's from now on... Coz no one will give a damn to wat you do anyway...

I'm really trying hard to crawl out... But his images juz flashed on and off my mind... Argh!!! I so hate myself! Why am I still entangle in this mess?! I felt so silly, so stupid, so idiotic... ARGH!!! Can someone juz help me erase this memory away?! Juz let me overcome this...

Which one?!

I'm deciding which one shld I get... The Sony Ericsson C905 or the Nokia N85...

Yes peeps, I know I've been harping on the phone matters for like months liao... But I'm seriously planning to change my phone next Wed... Hehe... Both looks fine to me leh... Think I shld get the C905 lah... Have been using SE for few years liao... Quite pleased with those previous phones lah... No major complaints... =)

Actually I received an email from SE (think ard) 3 weeks ago... They got the C905 in pink color!! Look very nice on the email and on their website lah... Dunno how does it look like in real leh... Hehe... And yes, I'm thinking of getting the pink one... But think it only sold on SE shops?! I seriously dunno lah... Think will find out more next Wed...

Was aiming for Nokia N85 oso a few mths ago... Before Christmas, I think... But I remembered someone told me tat Nokia servicing is damn lousy lor... So was thinking and pondering real hard...

Both phones are equally bulky type lah.. Both are slide phones lah... Both have wifi lah... Think I'll judge on the prices... Tat's the most important criteria to me... Muahaha...

In the meantime, let me continue to think which one suits me...

Work Woe

Saw the latest blog entry of 1 of my colleagues... Actually i kinda expected the entry liao lor... I juz couldnt believe tat no one would blog abt her work, or complain abt her boss... Maybe she did blog in her way-past-before entries and I'm simply too lazy to dig out and read... Hehe...

Honestly, if you ask me, being quiet in work doesnt mean tat you excel in work lor... And I think she failed to figure out why our boss always picked on her... I dun wanna march up to tell her coz she got bad reputation before or whatever... I dun wanna tell her why her seat is specially arranged so near to our boss... Haiz... Think she kinda determined to leave us this year... Bo bian...

Work is quiet again... Ya, peaks up on Friday... Simply hope tat bookings will start floating/ flooding in... Too quiet aint too good for us lor...

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Dear Mr Huan still owes me some approval lor... Haiz... He kip telling me 不要逼我... But he din spare a tot for me lor... 我不逼你我做不了事leh... He wanna go party again this Sat... Cant tahan him lah... Is he in some kind of trouble/ problem?! Why he like to party every week ah?! Tsk tsk tsk...

Think You Know Me Well?!

Think you know me well?! Pls think again...

I might not be the person who you think I really am... I'm not an open book, which everyone can read and will understand...

C'mon, let's juz be honest... Do you know abt my past?! Well, you might said past is past and it's not tat important... But past sometimes are a haunting memory to everyone... Everyone learn somethingy (at least one or two thingy) from their past... So past are still important thingy...

Not trying to be mysterious, but some thingy are best to keep juz within myself... Some thingy are better untold...

And my conclusion is: You are not me!! So dun always think you can predict what I said or do!

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So think again - Do you really know me tat well?!

My Decision

My book-of-answers told me: Let It Go... You'll Be Happier That Way... You'll Find Someone Worthy Of You... He's Juz Not That Into You... Let Go...

I wanna 'listened' to my book-of-answers... I started to remove bits and pieces of relating-matters of him... Actually everybody knows tat it will be a 無言的結局, but who dares/ wants to pour cold water on me rite from the beginning?! And moreoever, 如果當事人自己太投入, 外人是無法理解或阻止的... 不要強迫自己去忘記一個人... 你越是逼自己想忘記他/她, 越是難忘記...

Time will heal everything... I think... I hope... And I certainly hope so...

Tots

Work is in relaxed mood these few days... Dunno why but it seems like not alot of emails and bookings going on leh... Doesnt perfectly good to me lah... Worried tat they might send in their bookings in one shot lor...

Steamboat buffet dinner at Hey Hey Hotpot, located at Paradiz Centre... First visit there... Okie lah... There's no crowd at all lor... The restaurant is not even full lor... But honestly, the food are quite tasty lor... the soup is very nice... Love it! The char siew pau is oso very yummylicious... There's another cheesy thingy, forgot wat's the name and it's equally nice... Love it!! Surprisingly, I din take lotsa fotos... Think bcoz I was too busy tucking in... Hahaha...

Aiyo, I wore a new pair of shoes to work... Aint exactly new lah coz this is the 2nd time tat I'm wearing it... And shucks, my feet are in pain lor... Kaoz! I told myself tat this pair of shoes will be keep frozen in the shoe cabinet for at least a mth... Hehe... Well, it's not like I dun have other pairs of shoes... As a matter of fact, I still got at least 4 pairs of brand new shoes lor... Hehe...

Think my feelings towards him turning numb?! 我不知道現在只是習慣喜歡他,還是真的還在喜歡著他... Where's my book of answers?! I nid to look up on my book of answers!!!

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I know I shld write sth, but I juz dunno wat to write leh... Let me recall anything happened recently anot...

Haiz~~~ January juz zoomed past like tat... Tsk tsk tsk... Think I havent accomplish anything yet leh... Aiyo, cannot like this one... No good no good... Still trying to survive in my job... Haha... Gonna celebrate the 1st anniversary of me taking care of M Agency next week liao... Haha... Very fast lor, 1 year juz phewed thru like tat...

Actually started work last Friday liao... Gonna came back as stand-by, juz in case any URGENT MATTERS popped up... Haiz~~~ Waste of my youth lor... No phone calls at all lor... The phone only rung once - Quek and I were testing the phone to make sure the phones aint spolit... Wahahaha... In the end, we spent our time to prepare new files and throw away those old ones... Haiz~~~ My 1 day youth gone like tat lor...

Agencies seem to be quieten down these few days... (Touchwood!) The bookings seem to be lesser leh... Think due to the bad economy bah... But lesser doesnt equal to no bookings lor... I still got bookings to do lor... I still got approvals to chase... Haiz~~~

Feelings fading off... Will it rekindle back, I wonder?!
有希望是好的嗎?! 當希望變成失望，我該如何去承受、去面對呢?!